Because I'm generally enthusiastic and excitable while simultaneously cycling through input so that I never burn out, my interest is often fairly focused, buzzes off to a new thing, then returns to the first thing later on in a twirling dance. When it comes to objects or ideas I'm categorized as a nerd. When it comes to people, however, it results in a crush-like state of general and consistent appreciation for whatever it is that the person says, does, or otherwise engenders. This stems from any number of causes, but mostly from time spent directly with a friend/family member/coworker et al, direct artistic or overall vivacious inspiration triggered in me by that person, or lastly an unintentional manner in which they play a role in my daily life.
- Any newer friend that I get to know and discover commonality with;
- Any older friend for their understanding, steadfastness and history with me;
- Any creator, performer or expressive individual that triggers new ideas for my work;
- Any person who consistently offers insightful feedback;
- Acquaintances with podcasts, Instagram feeds or other media that I absorb on a consistent basis and relate to.
I used to feel self-conscious about these crushes because this can be unsettling for love interests or the person it's directed toward despite the fact that I'm of a gregarious, cuddly and enthusiastic disposition. Since becoming engaged to my long-time best friend however, I've found myself unashamedly pronouncing my newest (and even upcoming) loves. I can guarantee you that I have a crush at all times - TWO right now as a matter of fact!
Slade laughs at me about it, but that's because he is both secure in himself as well as our dynamics. It's important to be yourself, whatever that means to you; in my case, crushes and geekery are part of my natural characteristics along with an innate need to bounce from project to project and to keep moving. What about you?